2018: SAVOR the Moment

2018: SAVOR the Moment

Happy 2018!!

Thank you to all my faithful readers who still follow this blog 🙂

What a roller coaster of a year 2017 was. I’m looking forward to things slowing down a bit so that I can savor the moment!

I’m also studying a lot and my writing is on an upward growth curve. I’m back so don’t think that I’ve abandoned this blog that I started back in the summer of 2011. My oh my, how time flies when we’re having fun!

Eva Santiago COPYRIGHT 2018

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STRANGE CREATURES

STRANGE CREATURES

We are such strange creatures!

We have to leave, to miss, and to be missed

We need space,to feel closer to our loved ones

We have to give, to receive

We have to die, to live

We have to have known loss, so we can appreciate

We have to have known darkness,so we can shine brightly through our being

We have to have been lost, to  know the warm feeling of being loved and accepted

We have to be orphaned, in order to be adopted

We have to have tasted great hatred, so we can become great lovers

We have to have been buried, so we can sprout back up to life

We have to have been cut deeply and wide open, for blood to gush out, ushering in true healing

We have to have been cut, in order to be sutured

We have to have seen chaos, to appreciate harmony

We have to have heard cacophony, so we can  hear beautiful sounds….

EVA SANTIAGO COPYRIGHT 2015

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Shreds

Shreds

What is this tear in my heart?

My heart is shredded

I can’t even remember when it tore for the very first time; let alone the most recent

After all’s been said and done: I’m OK!

And after all that keeps coming my way: I’m OK!

Our hearts were made to withstand a lot more wear and tear than we want to admit

To love without measure

To love with a reckless abandon, is the way we were meant to love

Or, forget it and don’t even love at all

To love with all kinds of conditions, regulations and stipulations

Is no love at all

To love with a reckless abandon is to get your heart shredded

Once your heart ‘s been through the wood chipper

You are different for always….

Eva Santiago copyright 2015

DECISIONS

The making up of your mind is a slow process
Everyday you make up your mind
A confrontation
A Decision
Must be made
Up ahead
At the place where the road turns
You must decide
No one leaves a marriage
On the spur of the moment
You don’t pull the plug
On some one on life support
On a split second decision
Big out comes are decided
Long before they happen….

EVA SANTIAGO copyright 2014

Mas es Amar..To Love is More

Mas es amar

To love is more

Is it better to hide love

To keep it to yourself

Instead of giving it all away?

But for what good is love

If you hide it

Who will benefit

From hidden love

Love makes you suffer

Love makes you bleed

Love makes you ache

If it doesn’t

Count on it: It’s all fake

Mas es amar

To love is more

More than a sunset

More than much-needed summer rain

More than a kiss

More than an embrace

Mas es amar

To love is more

Way more than we could ever comprehend

We label it

We try to define it

Trying to define love

Is like trying to nail jello to the wall

For you see, love is a vast universe

Infinite

Endless

Bottomless

Love songs fail at describing it

Yet they do help us feel it a little more

Music pulls love from the intangible

And makes it a little more tangible

No one language can convey its entire meaning

French

Italian

Spanish

Portuguese

The Romance tongues all help us understand it with all of our flowery words

But never forget

Mas es amar

To love is more when it costs you your all.

EVA SANTIAGO copyright 2013

 

The Kindnesses of the Cruel

The worst thing in this existence is to not have been seen by the man who claimed to have loved me

You, loved me??

Seriously,do you know what love is?

Love is beyond a feeling

Love is a force

Love gives life

Love is beyond lust

Now do you get it?

True love reciprocates

True love intermingles

True love never hates

I deserve to know

Why you claimed to have loved me

When all I could ever feel was your hate

You bought me things

In attempts to satisfy my larger than life soul

You fool!

You never knew ME!!!

The worst thing in my existence is when you claimed your love for me when you haven’t a clue as to what love is

I asked you for one thing

It wasn’t material

You knew you wouldn’t give it

So you played me

‘Til the day I woke the hell up!

You’re a careless soul

Cruising through life

You drop people and shatter them into a billion bits

You trample them as on a trampoline

People for you are mere objects

The kindnesses of the cruel are oh so cruel

Your kind deeds are always from the dark side

Rendering them null and void in heaven’s bank account

And my whole world didn’t stop because you caused me to stumble

Stumble I did, and for you, I didn’t fall

For I knew who you were from day one

I’d seen you before in all the old, haunted places of my broken past

I chose you because all I knew was broken

And I figured you couldn’t break what was already shattered

I am strong…me you couldn’t scatter

So the worst thing in my existence is having chosen to live with the ghosts from my past;

All of which you so well embodied

EVA SANTIAGO copyright 2013

 

 

FOX and HOUND

Dear readers I normally don’t publish posts with profanity in them. Please excuse me as I don’t aim to offend anyone of you with this post. At times decent,clean words will fail us and the more appropriate word needed to express the intensity of the emotion will be a swear word. Whether you agree or not makes no difference. Thanks for your understanding

-Eva

FOX and HOUND

They met as children

When their universe was new

She held the stars

In her deep-set eyes

She knew nothing of meanness and lies

 

The fox and hound

These two grew and grew

A friendship formed

From 2 seeds planted in the ground

 

The years went on

Characters were set in place

While she played with dolls and lace

He’d take a thousand beatings in his face

 

They pledged a friendship’s love

He said he’d forever have her back

They pledged a friendship’s love

Promised he would never slack

 

And she trusted the fox

With her very life she did

Threw caution to the seven winds

Only to end up in a box

 

The one who pledged to have her back

Was  nowhere to be found

That night the predator came

He did not stop him

He did worse than doing nothing

He took his turn in his best friend‘s rape.

 

And my heart weeps with hers

And my heart aches with hers

For how can a mother have stopped this?

The rape of her own child

 

And justice will do nothing

Not a fucking thing will be done

For all the laws men write

Are all stacked up against her

 

The laws of this land are perverse

Everything is ass backward

Progress travels in reverse

For you see the laws say,” She asked for it.”

 

And justice will do nothing

Not a fucking thing will be done

For all the laws men write

Are designed to undermine her

 

You didn’t just rape my child

You stole from all of us

You violated our way of life

Run like hell before God takes yours

EVA SANTIAGO copyright 2013