365 Snap Shots of Life: Day 102

RE-SPECT = LOOK AGAIN

It is a tough thing to face daily that a loved one is dying right before my eyes. He went from being a man with a spring in his step when I first met him. After more than 2 decades of knowing him, his steps are weighed down with the cares of life. When I first met him his honey colored eyes were alive with hope and now, they are opaque and the light in them significantly dimmed. When I first met him, he had a full hair of beautiful thick, wavy,soft hair. Now his scalp shows through in patches and it feels brittle to my fingertips. A long time ago he never stopped- always wound up tighter than a clock. Now, he needs naps just to stay alive it seems. And theyโ€™re not little cat naps; the kind that rejuvenate and nourish the soul. He naps and I fear heโ€™ll one day not wake up at all. He said he wasnโ€™t addicted when we first met. He said he could always quit. Now that she has taken him for good, I see him bound by her oppressive chains and all I can do is weep because thereโ€™s nothing else to do for someone who is ย deep in the clutches and final stages of addiction.

My anger is gone. I used to be so upset at him for not taking care of himself. Now, I have a newfound respect. Iโ€™m looking again and I see a dying person who deserves to be treated with something he never ever received in his whole existence- Dignity.

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