My parents have always been here for me as I live out my journey with kidney failure; I get strength from both my mom and dad who were always by my bed every time I have been hospitalized. They would get upset when I would play “forbidden” games such as football and basketball and the tube in my chest would fall out; I knew they were telling me not to only because they love me and were looking out for me. They didn’t want to see me go through more than what I was already going through. At times my mom has been strong for both my dad and I.
There was a time when my dad was terribly ill too and we both ended up in the hospital. There my mom was taking care of both of us; running back and forth between our hospital rooms and still having to take care of my other siblings at home and making sure that they did what they were supposed to. I have often marveled at my mother, wondering how she can be so strong for all of us. She is like an immovable tower; a light house with a one beacon of light that steers all the incoming ships safely into the harbour. My mom has held our whole family together during the storms and she’s guided all of us to safety. I believe in guardian angels because I live with one everyday and her name is Sharon-I thank God for my mom everyday.
On days when I’m feeling really sick, especially after dialysis or lately, chemotherapy; I don’t like to wear it on my sleeve. I try to be strong for my family because I know it hurts them to see me struggling. So I put on my tough guy face for them. There are times though, that I have to let my wall down because I can’t take it anymore and so I go to my mom; she’s the only one I tell just how bad it really is for me. I have this one wish: I long to take care of my mom like she does me.